*My Muse*♥️☺
*_Chapter 14_*
*Natasha's POV*
"What are you talking about? Is everything okay?" I asked,not sure I heard him right.
"I've put you through a lot Tasha and I don't deserve you", he said, looking away and a tear drop fell from his eye.
"June, where from all these?" I said, tearing up too. I couldn't believe that this was happening. God if it's a dream, please wake me up. I can't deal with this.
"Tasha, you're a wonderful and loyal person. You need someone who will give you all the attention and love you need. I don't deserve you Tasha".
"June don't do this to me. I love you so much and I want to be with you. I'll become supportive and patient with you, just don't leave me", I said crying out loud.
"Tasha you're making this difficult for me. I'll always be busy at church, work and other places. You can't keep up with that, even if you do, you'll hurt yourself".
"Why are you doing this? Is it because of Freda? You think she's the one who can keep up with church, work and all that?" I asked getting angry.
"No Tasha, it's about you not her and... ", he tried saying but I cut in.
"Where were you this whole time? You were with her right?" I asked with irritation and disgust.
"No Tasha. I can't do that to you and you know that. I felt guilty about how sad and hurt you were in this relationship and I went away to fast and pray concerning our relationship and concerning you. I wanted God to help me become better for you. But I got a different revelation. I saw you in a white dress, but I wasn't standing by you. I was rather blessing your marriage. When I saw it, I freaked out and prayed again telling God that he can't do this to me. But I kept on seeing the same revelation. It really hurt me and I cried for days Tasha. Do you know how it felt? I'm not the one for you Tasha. I'll always be there for you and I'll always love you. But God's will is the best", he said, trying to control his tears.
I couldn't believe this. God why??!
"June, I don't think I can live without you😭😭", I said.
"Don't say that. You can. God knows best and he'll bring someone your way and I'll be there to wed you two", he said and I got angry at the fact that he was already talking about me and someone else.
"June please. Let's pray to God together and tell him that we want each other. He'll agree", I said desperately.
"Tasha, don't you think I've done that. Of course he can let us get married and we'll be happy but his will and way is always the best. Just trust him. This hurts me more than ever but I just placed my hope in him. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me and I don't think there's someone better than you but if he's got someone, then I can't wait to see who that is. You should think the same way too. In my revelation you looked really happy in your white dress. God has someone better Tash. Just trust him", he said and I calmed down a bit.
"Can I hug you for sometime", I asked him and he got up and sat by me. I placed my arms around him and hugged him really tight. I started crying again and he comforted me.
I don't know how I'm going to pull through. God please help me. I can't, I can't😭😭😭
After a while June got up to leave.
"I'll see you around Tash. Please do not get. I need you to be strong,okay", he said and I nodded.
Immediately he left, I ran to my mum's room. She was asleep, but I didn't care. I woke her up and told her what happened. She tried consoling me but I couldn't just stop the tears.
After a while, I fell asleep.
*Oscar's POV*
I was in my room, playing games when Mabel walked in with a sad face.
On seeing her face, I stopped the game I was playing and asked her if everything was alright.
"You've been distant lately, Oscar. I've been in your house for a week now and you've not even slept by me or touched me or anything. And you've still not placed the ring in my finger. I know we're engaged but I need the ring as a symbol", she said and she sat on my thighs, wrapping her arms around my neck.
"I'm so sorry Mabel. I honestly forgot about the ring. I thought you actually had it on", let me get it for you, I said trying to get her off me but she held on to me really tight.
"Can't we just get married soon. Not being able to sleep with you or touch you like that is killing me", she said, and I burst out laughing.
"I'm a guy, so it kills me more but we can't do anything about it. We just have to wait",I said, trying to get her off me but she didn't move.
"Mabel, don't you want the ring again?" I asked her but she ignored me and kissed me.
"Mabel, stop it". I said, trying to pull her off.
She finally got up. But she didn't leave. She took off her clothes and that was how I lost control of myself.
We slept together that evening and every other evening.
Our relationship became sexual and I didn't know how to stop it.
I didn't know who to talk to about it. I couldn't bring myself to talk to Natasha. I intentionally didn't show up for our next appointment.
For a week now, Mabel and I were glued to each other. I went to work late and came back home really early just to be in bed with her.
One morning she woke up feeling dizzy and I got terrified when she told me that her period was late.
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